FWIW – a literary site

The literary site of Jason Bentsman & Co. Entertainment, illumination, edification





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



“Let us not forget that culture and language were the first virtual realities. A child is born into a world of unspeakable wonder. Each part of the world is seen to glow with animate mystery and the beckoning light of the unknown. But quickly our parents and our siblings provide us with words. At first these are nouns; that shimmering pattern of sound and iridescence is a ‘bird,’ that cool, silky, undulating surface is ‘water.’ As young children we respond to our cultural programming and quickly replace mysterious things and feelings with culturally validated and familiar words. We tile over reality with a mosaic of interconnected words. Later, as we grow in ability and understanding, the culture in which we find ourselves provides conventionalized relationships for us to model. Lover, father, investor, property owner. Each role has its own rules and its own conventions. These roles, too, tile over and replace the amorphous wonder of simply being alive. As we learn our lines and blocking that goes with them, we move out of the inchoate realm of the preverbal child and into the realm of the first virtual reality, the VR of culture. Many of us never realize that this domain is virtual, and instead we assume that we are discovering the true nature of the real world.”

       — Terence McKenna, in The Archaic Revival: Speculations on Psychedelic Mushrooms, the                   Amazon, Virtual Reality, UFOs, Evolution, Shamanism, the Rebirth of the Goddess, and the               End of History





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



Food and drink are great, but this ‘foodie-ism,’ this obsession with meticulously garnered and crafted food & drink in NYC (and elsewhere), which is taken to the point of absurdity, is symptomatic of a largely confused, addled, decadent culture, grasping onto anything that provides some semblance of meaning in the void of moribund judeo-christianity, philosophy, and aesthetics





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



 

 

 

 

From the vault. . . EXIT MUSIC

‘A short ambient film about being a humanist in the postmodern world.’ 

 

Note: The film is uploaded at a resolution optimized for viewing on laptop and PC; watching at larger sizes will cause increased graininess (that is, even grainier than it’s supposed to be). For optimal effect, the volume should be turned up loud.  

  


 

 

 

A Little About the Film 

 

Short description


‘A short ambient film about being a humanist in the postmodern world…’

 

Given the current climate in the US—and the world—and Autumn now in the air (while Autumn still exists), thought it would be fitting to share this short film I made some years ago, which deals with the alienation and pollution of Consumerism and media, and has a certain gothic / Halloweenish aesthetic.


Reductively speaking, the film illustrates the subjective perspective of a young man alienated from his postmodern, consumeristic, media-addled, and polluting society, as he drives over a 24 hour period through a faltering landscape…


Inspired in part by a comment by Russian filmmaker Andrei Tarkovsky about the future of cinema: “It would be nice, let us say, to shoot a film in complete freedom… Reject large financing. Have the possibility to observe nature and people, and film them, without haste. The story would be born autonomously…”

 

 

Longer Description

 

EXIT MUSIC was made as an equal partnership between happenstance and direction. A basic plot and direction was conceived, and the filmmakers then set out on a two day road-trip to see what they would come across, with a certain amusement park as their sole planned destination. The film is comprised entirely of found, unplanned imagery, and partially of found sounds, themselves altering and shaping the original conception, molded in the editing process into a certain plot, with certain poetic symbols and resonances.

 

Reductively speaking, the film illustrates the subjective, skewed, blurred perspective of a young man alienated from his postmodern, consumeristic, media-addled, and polluting society, as well as seemingly from himself and his own emotions, as he drives over a twenty-four hour period (maybe shown chronologically, maybe not) through a faltering landscape, in a seemingly increasingly despairing state of mind. Maybe aimlessly, or maybe intentionally going to certain destinations and his impending doom. Thus the film operates mainly on subjective and subconscious levels, seamlessly blending the character’s memories, fantasies, and sensations with his impressions of the exterior world.

 

The sometimes jarring editing, preventing tranquil contemplation, allowing few moments of respite; the fogginess and besmirchedness, many of the impressions blurry behind stained glass and multiple surfaces; and the selective sound design, made up of contemporary digital and technological music, sounds, noises, and feedback, in parts discordant, strident, and unremitting, allow the viewer to share in the character’s myopic experiences, contributing to the impression of decadence, decline, and ruination.

 

However, the limited third person perspective, which sometimes steps back to reveal a more objective assessment; the ongoing defamiliarizaton of that which is typically taken for granted; the bright, impressionistic colors, landscape, and attractive abstracted patterns; and the insouciance of being in transit, on the road, in motion, observing nature and all passing phenomena, complemented at times by not unpleasant or even galvanizing music, indicate that there is a kind of transcendent beauty, a kind of “music” in this societal and environmental decline, and even in the dissipation and perhaps impending death of the character himself. However subjectively bleak things seem, a rarefied “music” in existence. That if the character could get out of his own preoccupations and interpretations and simply tune into life itself, there could be a kind of relief or peace that would offer some salvation. Perhaps this is what the song during the credits and momentary clip at the end allude to?

   

The film was inspired in part by a comment by Russian filmmaker Andrei Tarkovsky about the future of cinema: “It would be nice, let us say, to shoot a film in complete freedom, like amateurs make their films. Reject large financing. Have the possibility to observe nature and people, and film them, without haste. The story would be born autonomously: as the result of these observations, not from obliged shots, planned in the tiniest detail. Such a film would be difficult to realize in the manner that commercial films are realized. It would have to be shot in absolute freedom, independent from lighting, from actors, from the time employed in filming, etc, etc. And with a reduced gauge camera. I believe that such a method of filming could push me to move much further forward.” In part by the Dogme film movement, utilizing some of its technical formulations and constraints. And in part by the perennial movements of structured spontaneity in the arts, reflected, for example, in the paintings of the Post-Impressionists and Expressionists, in 20th century Jazz Music, in the photographs of Henri Cartier-Bresson and others of the “street photography” movement, and in the writings of the Beats. There are also Surrealist and Gothic influences, among others.

 

 

Director: Jason Bentsman. Starring: Milton Shadwell.

Ithaca Film Festival “Best of Fest” & Touring Program

 

 





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



From the vault . . . 

 

Dr. Natick Plaza, a self-professed expert on the blues, appears on Nick Loss-Eaton’s blues radio show Blueberry Muffins, and commences to ‘take it over’ and ‘sabotage’ it.

 

Including stream-of-consciousness riffs about supposed blues history, the roles of the sexes, Nick’s recent break-up with “his woman Jackie,” bodily functions, and 101 other uncouth and bizarre things. And featuring the music of BB King, the John Spencer Blues Explosion, the Rolling Stones, and other blues-inspired luminaries, with Dr. Plaza incorrigibly talking over much of it to Nick’s increasing frustration.

 

The show was not rehearsed and is completely ad-libbed; the emotions on Nick’s part are mostly real. After a little while, the show was flooded with calls (mostly positive), and it ended up being one of the most listened-to in the station’s history. 

 

 

Dr. Natick Plaza – Side A

 

Dr. Natick Plaza – Side B





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



pripyat, ukraine - Tim Seuss - creepiest cities

“Some cities die. The people leave, the streets go quiet, and the isolation takes on the macabre shape of a forlorn ghost-town— crumbling with haunting neglect and urban decay. . .”

 

 

 

 





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



My god, Bourbon Street sounds crazy as we approach from the curb! It hits me as I round the corner. All of it. Shoes scuffling pavement, laughter and cries high pitched and shrill or deep and throaty resonant abrupt, all manner of chit-chat accents and dialects, angry words, drunken screams, howls, accusations, trash plastics and paper crunching underfoot like cinder, “Show your tits, show your tits,” chanted over and over by an enraptured crowd— all of it, here, coming closer, blending into enveloping raucous, a typhoon of discord. And as we draw even closer… smells, carried on sun-warmed air, smells of body odor and sweat, all types of perfumes colognes deodorants cosmetics, alcohol and beer, mixed drink sickly sweetness, grilling meat, and more, more, something more, a stench rising from the ground, and all of it— mixing together, frenetic, dissonant, an overwhelming cloud, a living organism, an amusement park of sounds and smells. And we’re not even close! “Show your tits! Show your tits!”

 

Long stretch of narrow street, but I can barely see anything, not the street, not the buildings. Just the crowd. The crowd teeming and swaying like blades of grass. A mix of every race creed religion sexual orientation, pushing heaving maneuvering jumping and shoving, but— the individuals, they meld together, disappear. The Crowd. From here, from a block away, there’s only the Crowd.

 

And the buildings, the buildings, like cardboard cut-outs— I see them now— a potpourri of shops stands saloons bars nightclubs jazz clubs strip joints. Like a two-dimensional Hollywood set. Glitz, kitsch, and sparkle. Greens purples yellows, squash and pumpkin-colored brick, reds auburns, deteriorating whites, stuccos, all glowing in the sun, and trimmed with gold, bright yellow, silver, and track lighting, lanterns, sconces (lit even in day), fluorescent and neon signs, railings banisters doors covered in splotches of paint, posters flags and banners, falling confetti, streamers, and beads…

 

A shower of beads. Prismatic spray. Thrown by people atop the balconies. Ornate metal balconies, green and calcified, relics of Old Orleans— draped in metallic streamers (gold silver violet emerald and purple), intertwining, and dangling in clumps— and decorated with banners, white and yellow banners bearing logos… B & A Bolt Supply, Inc. Lafayette. Freeport, TX. Baytown, Texas… 104.1 FM. Your Jazz Source… Dustin Francis Unlimited… Hanging masks, faces of jesters, and harlequins. (The people on the balconies, my friend James tells me, are mostly from corporations; their companies rent the second and third floors of clubs and cafes.) “…show your tits… show your tits…” Interplay between the balconies and the crowd. Beads drop in a haze of sparkles. Some dangle in long strings, just high enough, out of reach. Expose your breasts, gets beads, it’s that easy, I guess. But what do men do? White torsos appear with rhythmic regularity. People reaching upward, straining, following the beads’ paths to the ground, ducking, submerging themselves, the risk of being stepped on, or worse, trampled…

 

And above it all, above the crowd, this seething teeming mass— above it all are street lamps, wooden posts, street signs sticking out like colored swords or umbrellas in a cocktail. Orleans… Bourbon… St. Peter written in white lettering on black background… Oriental Isle, TO GO, Hand Grenades, Exotic Drinks, Newspapers, Cigarettes… Watson Bourbon, Dedicated to the Preservation of Jazz… Fire Lane, No Parking… One Way, Do Not Enter… Krazy Korner…

 

Almost there.

 

I take a breath… and step into the Crowd…

 

Tumult. Momentary loss of personality. Everyone hypnotized, doing things beyond their will. Release of instinct, impulse. And the heat! A catalyst. Muggy warmth. Outside it’s cool, a cool day, but here, inside, it’s like the tropics. And that stench! The ground rising up, mingling with cosmetics and sweat, putrid rancid and pungent, like carrion. Charred black, littered with fluids and every piece of trash imaginable. Everyone too drunk or drugged to care. A strange land of strange natives, chanting and writhing, gold raining down from the sky, the boon of some Aztec god. I’m packed tightly, around me people jostling shoving people reaching for beads, throwing beads, spilling beer and spraying sweat. I’m sweating too. It’s kill or be killed. Darwin in effect. A girl trips and falls, clings to my shirt, whispers something unintelligible and pushes off into the crowd. A wave pool without a life preserver— or the Caribbean during a gale. If I didn’t have a strong stomach, I’d be seasick. Beads rain on my head, but I’m too slow. Too slow. Someone almost hits me trying to grab them. I kneel down, look around, but some thirteen-year-old’s swiped them already. Hundreds of legs pounding around me like pistons. Jesus. I spring up quickly. A chain of camera flashes…

 

A girl throwing her shirt off. And everywhere I look, naked torsos. Men crowding around, like a school of sharks circling, taking snapshot after snapshot. The timing has to be just right— when the hemline rises above the stomach— and then click, flash, a stranger’s breasts captured for eternity. Some men pull their pants down for the right price… I see a woman tan as a leather suitcase. Guys decked out like pimps, and guys in business suits. Hippie girls with flower dresses. Muscle-men. Bulging biceps. A white sign reading Huge Ass Beers in blue letters. Next to it, a guy in Wisconsin Football poncho, stupid grin on his face. A black man in tuxedo. Signs. Posters. Rows and rows of nudie pics (advertisements for strip clubs)— women in red robes, leather fur satin lace, coquettish positions— bordered by blinking lights… Maiden Voyage… Hobgoblin Ale… Perch Balcony, Look Upstairs. Great view of Bourbon Street… Michelob… Everyone is welcome, but this is a straight bar… Budweisers… Bud Light… yellow neon sign shaped like an alligator… Party Like It’s 1999… One attractive woman atop a balcony especially popular with the crowd, showing her breasts over and over, hundreds of beads around her neck. A bald guy in jean jacket bending over the railing for a better look. James behind me somewhere, but I can’t see him… A guy running by, chanting Indian war-whoop, parting the crowd, a camera swinging from his shoulder; a mass of muscle and sinew, and he’s dressed in a Minotaur suit. A Minotaur suit! Fantastic outfit. Terrible mask of real fur, complete with ivory horns, and leather loin cloth, Viking boots— skin even glued with patches of fur. Old man next to me in tweed suit propositioning a young girl to show her breasts. Latino guy— gelled hair, tinted glasses, feather-boa— sucking on an old woman’s nipple. This I’d like to photograph. Flash. Captured in my cheap camera…

 

Can’t stand much more of this. I push onward, knocking people aside, James following. Eventually we push through to the other end, the mouth of the crowd, breaking away. Smells and sounds of Bourbon trailing behind us like a foreign cloud. Sweaty and warm, met with cool breeze, shivering, and teeth chattering. I smell like the crowd. Beer, cologne, perfume. And no beads to show for it.

 

We press on through the French Quarter. It’s more posh here, upscale, and the streets are narrower. Not many people around. Shops white and clean. Bulletproof display cases. Expensive watches, mink coats, bottles of perfume. And the street itself smells vaguely of perfume; a pleasant change from Bourbon. A group of three very old ladies walks by. One stops along the way, bends down, taking a good ten seconds of effort, and picks a pair of cheap beads off the ground.

 

 

 

 

– From the novel Mardi Gras in the Moment

Appeared in Flaneur No. 3 (ed. Lawrence Levi, NYC)





Donating = Loving

If you found the above item worthwhile—or get any joy and value from the site—it would be great if you could leave a 'tip'... FWIW takes a lot of time and money to run. Donations from engaged readers are immensely helpful (and indeed indispensable).

 

You could contribute with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner. (Note: You don’t actually need a PayPal account; just use any credit or debit card and click through.)

Or you can make a One-Time or Recurring donation in Any Amount of your choice:

 

Partial to Bitcoin? You can send to this address: 
341CiB6nQsKYMcYrKcdTQJvrpa2wAx7fmC
Other cryptocurrencies? Ask for the address

To Occasionally See More Pieces Like This In Your FB Newsfeed  

 

   



— ♥ DONATE —

Running FWIW takes a lot of time and money. But I keep it wholly Ad Free for readers' benefit. Donations are immensely helpful. . . If you derive any joy and value here, please consider becoming a Supporting Regular, with a modest recurring Monthly Donation of your choice, between a cup of tea and a dinner.

Follow FWIW's new posts:

RSS Subscribe

Subscribe

All contents copyright ©This Year FWIW – a literary site

CLOSE I already like FWIW! OPT OUT: 

“Purity is Obscurity” – Ogden Nash



Show your support by liking FWIW on FB and/or G+, where I post something worthwhile (illuminating, informative, poetic, comic, tragic, usefully irreverent, captivatingly absurd) sporadically, whenever the mood strikes. . . You never know what you're going to get, but if I'm doing things right, whatever it is should ultimately enrich rather than detract from your life.

Content Protected Using Blog Protector By: PcDrome.