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A Humor Extravaganza — featuring the humor

writing & cartoons of Anthony Scibelli, Michael Litwak,

Luís Leal Miranda,
Kristina Libby, Tim Cahill,

Laura K. Duncan, Chris Gural, Michael Pershan,


K.A. Polzin, Robert Criss, Jeff Kulik, Arun Durvasula




© Chris Gural





Table of Contents

 

1. Introduction
2. One Sentence Short Stories – Anthony Scibelli
3. Cartoons – Michael Litwak
4. Romeo and Juliet, but with Dehumidifiers and Humidifiers – Luís Leal Miranda
5. Jack Reacher Visits the Cardiologist – Kristina Libby & Timothy Cahill
6. That Benihana Wasn’t in the Basement When We Bought This House, Brian – Laura K. Duncan
7. Cartoonz – Chris Gural
8. Joseph and Mary Ask Jesus to Come Home for Hanukkah – Michael Pershan
9. If This Is Jesus’s Wine, I Think I’d Prefer Water – K.A. Polzin
10. You Want Me To Talk? What’s Next, I Gotta Sing And Dance? – Robert Criss
11. I’m The Guy Who Has to Read All Your Comedy Articles – Jeff Kulik
12. Cartooooons – Arun Durvasula





 


Introduction


Some months ago, I took part in an online humor writer and cartoonist group aimed at confabbing, collaborating, and honing skills. 

Though the group interacted exclusively through messaging, some synergistic connections were made and separate personal correspondences came of it.

Later, felt inspired to do a feature here on FWIW on a young-ish prolific humor writer and visualist–whose work I’d come across randomly early on in my own foray into publishing short humor, appreciated for its inventiveness and border-straddling perversity, and felt had been a little neglected hitherto–and who I was surprised to discover was also part of the group.

Though a bit time-consuming to put together–usually I wouldn’t do such an extended dive–it was pretty fun, and also garnered somewhat more attention for the wee lad (who might be the next Aristophanes, or else supreme leader of North Korea) than I would have expected.

This got me thinking: why not put together an ‘Issue’ featuring the comic stylings of anyone from the group who wished to participate. It’d be fun, enriching. A little Humor Extravaganza.

During the group’s career, I was impressed with everyone’s diverse and characteristic work and styles. If, say, Michael Crichton invented a crack humor group for some bizarre novel representing different styles, tastes, and talents, surely he couldn’t do better. (Most of Crichton’s novels are centered on some group of experts assembled to fulfill a daunting mission.)

Emailed everyone with the idea, and was a little surprised and heartened by the response. Generally people seemed enthused.


One humorist wrote that, in this age of disconnection, they naturally hanker for and gravitate towards collaborative projects, preferably with an in-person component, or at least remotely such as this. 

Most members sent pieces. In some cases more–a lot more–than the 1 or 2 requested
🙂 And all, wonderfully, by choice or chance, are of high caliber. Bringing to mind the expression ‘spoiled for choice.’ 

Indeed so many humorists’ works are represented here, I’ve thought to create a Table of Contents for the reader to best navigate them. 

It should be noted that the order doesn’t signify any partiality, and–aside from some thematic parallels, and maybe an intuitive loose energetic and narrative flow–is random. 

The humor really is first rate. An eclectic range of voices running the gamut of the best the contemporary  humor writing (and cartooning) milieu has to offer.

As a downbeat but maybe necessary aside, (imho), due to manifold postmodern logistical and philosophical factors–ie, the consumerist mercenary algorithm-based New Media / Social Media ‘attention economy,’ shortened attention spans, cultural degradation, high printing costs, and others–alas, the humor writing milieu has been flagging for some years.

To wit: like in many of the arts nowadays, there’s a superabundance of hobbyists, but–in main because there’s no money in it anymore–few take the endeavor professionally, and steep themselves deeply in the tradition; viable publications keep closing; and extant ones will only accept works of shorter and shorter length. 

Yet, as we clearly see in this potpourri, there’s still a significant number of vital and original voices and up-and-comers to be found! 

As far as credentials (which, we all know, particularly depending on the time-and-place–looking at you, the so-called Dark Ages, Nazi Germany, 1984 and Brave New World–aren’t always indicative of quality, but here they do corroborate)…

We’ve got humorists and cartoonists from The New Yorker, The Old Yorker, The Ye Olde Yorker, McSweeney’s, McDreamy’s, McSorley’s, McCreamy’s, The American Bystander, The Weekly Humorist, The Weekly Bystander, The American Humorist, The American Weekly Humorist Bystander, the graffitied highway underpass, notable filmmakers, novelists, TV writers, stand-ups, flamenco dancers, dental technicians, equestrians, poodle colorists, chicken sexers, underwater basket weavers, and everything in between.

I’m more familiar with some of these humorists’ bodies of work than others. Unlike the aforementioned deep-dive on a single humorist, regrettably I haven’t the time to plumb the works of everyone here and offer detailed impressions and insights, and it wouldn’t be ‘fair’ to do so only for some and not others.

A short bio is provided under the work of each humorist (self-submitted). If anyone’s work particularly interests you, yes, please, follow up via their website or online search.

May you enjoy–and even be edified by–the unfolding Humor Extravaganza. 

–Ed.

 



One Sentence Short Stories
Anthony Scibelli


Bigfoot
At first, we were all impressed when Kevin managed to get a picture of Bigfoot, but we had to tell him it didn’t really count once we learned they were related.

Into The Earth’s Core
“Oh come on, it doesn’t look that deep,” I said, jumping into the hole.

Eye To Eye
Even though we often disagreed, it was easy for me to see things from Alex’s perspective because we were the same height.

The Time Machine
“That’s a nice wristwatch,” he said.

‘Tis The Season
It was my favorite time of the year: 2 PM.

Hot Coffee
“How should I know where your coffee is?” I told the customer, “You ordered it to go.”

The Prophecy Fulfilled
“Oops,” said the wizard as he turned the prophecy over and saw what was written on the back.

Where Everybody Knows Your Name
“Who are you?” they asked.

The Meaning of Life
I thought I had been cynical since I was a child, until I looked up its definition.

The Changing Room
“I swear this was a bathroom last time I was in here,” she said.

The Award
It was an honor just to be nominated, which is why I was annoyed I wasn’t even nominated.




Anthony Scibelli is a stand-up comedian, writer, and filmmaker. His writing has appeared in McSweeney’s, American Bystander, and Points in Case, and his short films and web series have won awards and been screened as Official Selections in festivals across the country, including the Boston Film Gala, the LA Film Awards, and the SENE Film, Music & Arts Festival. His pilot script, Dino-Detectives, was an Official Selection at the Catalyst Story Institute.

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Cartoons
Michael Litwak

 

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Michael Lukk Litwak is a filmmaker and cartoonist based in Brooklyn, NY. His first feature film “Molli and Max in the Future” premiered at SXSW 2023 and was a NYT Critic’s pick. You can find his work at www.michaellitwak.com

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William Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet, but
with Dehumidifiers and Humidifiers

instead of Capulets and Montagues
Luís Leal Miranda

 


‘I love you like the stars above,’ says Juliet, the dehumidifier.

‘I love you too,’ replies Romeo, the humidifier, ‘but our love is…’

Juliet lets out a sigh — an inward sigh, absorbing the air and some of the moisture contained in it.

‘All my dad wants is to get rid of humidity…,’ she says.

‘And my parents think only of creating relaxing atmospheres, even if that leads to an environment conducive to the development of mold, mildew, and fungi,’ says Romeo, letting out a little vapor.

Romeo, the humidifier, and Juliet, the dehumidifier, remain in silence for a moment, enjoying each other’s company and that feeling of thermal comfort that can only be achieved with a good distribution of relative humidity.

‘Let’s run away. Let’s go to a place with air conditioning,’ Romeo proposes.

However, his beloved doesn’t reply.

Believing that Juliet, the dehumidifier, has unplugged herself from the wall socket, Romeo does the same and ends his own life.

Unbeknownst to him, Juliet was merely in hibernation mode, an automated system routine that paused her operation when air humidity reached ideal levels.

Hours later, Juliet awakens and, appalled by the tragedy, takes her own life by pouring the water absorbed throughout the day over herself.

Both appliances were still within warranty, but no one could find the original receipts.



 


Luís Leal Miranda is a writer from Lisbon, Portugal, who is chased by foot-shaped holes every time he goes to the beach. He’s the author of 12 books, from short story collections to children’s books, a dictionary of made up words, and a version of Hamlet without the letter O. All of them are written in Portuguese.

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Jack Reacher Visits the Cardiologist
Kristina Libby & Timothy Cahill

 

 

Reacher took one look at cardiologist Dr. Janie Wilson and knew she was disappointed in him. 

 

“I got your labs back this morning,” she said. “By all accounts, you should be dead.” 

 

Reacher scoffed at this ridiculous proposal.

 

“Me? Dead? That’s not likely unless there is heavy artillery, a group of elite enemy soldiers, and some sort of sleeping potion poison is involved.”

 

“Well,” Dr. Wilson began. “Your blood pressure’s 180 over 100, your resting heart rate is 160, and a never before seen coagulated mixture of apple pie, cheeseburger, and gun fumes is coursing through your veins and somehow keeping you alive. All of our hematologists are simultaneously baffled and disgusted.”  

 

“Surely there’s been a mistake Dr.,” Reacher protested. 

 

“I,” Reacher hesitated. “I always show up when my team’s back is against the wall and I keep myself in great shape, thank you very much. I live by a code: You do not mess with the special investigators.” 

 

“Sure. Fine,” said Dr. Wilson. “But what about during your downtime, when, say, no one’s messing with the special investigators? What do you do then?”

 

“Hmmmmm,” Reacher thought, scratching his chin with his meaty paw. He had never thought about ‘downtime.’ Reacher was a primal force. He kept moving, striding forward when the rest of the world didn’t man up. “I guess I… spend a lot of time riding on buses, sitting, and just staring out the window. I like to imagine hearing blues songs sung by Howling Wolf and Bob Seger. I do this for days on end with no goal in mind, whatsoever.” 

 

“Exactly!” Dr. Wilson said. “Living a sedentary life is NOT good for your heart, let alone your mental state. And pretending to listen to music as opposed to actually listening to music are two very different things, psychologically speaking. A big lifestyle change is in order for you Mr. Reacher. Let me ask you this, after these bus rides, where do you eat? What do you usually have?”

 

“Easy,” Reacher said assuredly. “I eat at diners or truck stops or rib joints or greasy spoon dive bars. In fact, I haven’t had a meal that wasn’t at one of these places for the past twenty years or so. Damn proud of it too.”

 

“Ah, well that brings us to the crux of today’s visit,” Dr. Wilson said. “You have Type 2 Diabetes, Mr. Reacher.”

 

Reacher looked down at his hospital johnny and cracked a wry smile. “I think you’ve got the wrong man, Doc.”

 

Dr. Wilson pinched the bridge of her nose with her thumb and index finger. “No, Mr. Reacher, definitely not — I assure you there has been no mistake.”

 

“People make mistakes all the time. I’ve seen it firsthand in Baghdad, Lebanon, Iraq, you name it. People mess up, I get it,” said Reacher.

 

“Okay, but your actual pancreas has stopped producing insulin because you treat your body like an abused bindle filled with roadside garbage.”

 

“A bindle seems a little extreme, Dr.”

 

“I was searching for a metaphor you might understand,” she said, before adding, “Furthermore, shooting fifteen people in the face in under five minutes every 30 days doesn’t equal the caloric intake of even one piece of apple pie. You need to move your body more.”

 

Reacher got defensive. “Well… what about all the fighting I do, and the hand-to-hand combat?”

 

“Again, punching a dozen people in the head for three minute bursts can’t possibly make up for a daily lunch of six hamburgers.” 

 

“It’s three, plus a turkey club sandwich, plus three cups of coffee, plus a healthy piece of huckleberry pie.” 

 

“No,” she said. 

 

Reacher was flummoxed. 

 

“Well, well, what about the time I spend thinking with my thoughts? That’s gotta be good for something.”

 

“Jack,” she began.

 

“Reacher.”

 

“Reacher. You’ll need to immediately start dieting and exercising and stop putting yourself in life-threatening high stress situations. No buses. No fighting. No guns. Get a healthy gym regime. I’d also recommend getting an iPod so you can hear the difference between real and imagined music.”

 

Reacher puffed his chest and looked Dr. Wilson directly in the eyes. “Ma’am, with all due respect, I’m not sure you know who you’re dealing with, but let me enlighten you. I’m a beefed up modern day archetype of the last American cowboy. I drift from state to state with no wallet, no home, no clothes, no wife, no dietary restrictions, and no responsibilities. Period. I show up for my semi-estranged Army buddies at precisely the right time, and crush nefarious bad guys and dismantle shady corporations with my Ninja Turtle body and cunning observation skills. I’m fueled by an unquenchable desire to inflict maximum pain thinly disguised as pseudo-justice throughout small towns across the nation, over and over again. I need to hitchhike, I need to eat like a trash compactor, and I need to imagine the concept of traditional blues music. It’s just my way of life.”

 

Dr. Wilson made her voice slightly louder, pretending not to hear him. “You’ll need a state of the art glucose monitor, daily insulin injections, and a metformin prescription. And, lucky for you, the baffled hematologists pitched in and got you a free Peloton, a Headspace subscription, and one of those weekly fruit and vegetable home delivery boxes — no questions asked. All we need from you is a home address, that’s it… Reacher?…  Mr. Reacher?”

 

Reacher looked far off in the distance with a thousand yard stare. He closed his eyes, swallowed deeply and spoke slowly, as if finally acquiescing to Dr. Wilson’s sea change of a lifestyle.

“Ma’am, my address is… 1… Main Street… Anytown, USA.”





Kristina Libby is a writer, screenwriter, and essayist living in NYC. Occasionally she still works in tech, but only when people have really wild ideas and need her to help them craft a story. www.kristinalibby.com

Tim Cahill is a writer, humorist, and musician living in New York City. He loves well made sweaters and well-crafted stories. www.tvcahill.net

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I Don’t Care What You Say, Brian,
That Benihana Wasn’t in the Basement
When We Bought This House

Laura K. Duncan



Sure, Benihana has over 110 locations worldwide, but I know most are not in the basement of a two-thousand-square-foot single-family suburban home. I’ve personally visited Benihana in the past — on a DATE, Brian, because I had other romantic partners before we met — but that particular location did not have a two-car garage or a novelty mailbox in the shape of a fish, although I suppose it would reflect the restaurant’s delicious sushi menu. That’s just sensible branding, Brian. Benihana is more than great teppanyaki.

I remember walking through this house with the real estate agent three years ago. We definitely discussed the UNFINISHED basement. I even walked into a cobweb, Brian. You laughed affectionately and called me your “little mummy.” I also remember later that night when I playfully chased you, going, “Currrse, CURRRSE.”

I’ll tell you what I don’t remember: A discussion about a basement restaurant featuring ten teppan-style griddle tables, each with comfortable seating for eight people.

At no stage during our subsequent home inspection did we encounter a staff of at least fifteen people, including several rigorously-trained teppanyaki chefs. I have enjoyed meeting the employees when they emerge upstairs to pet the dog or smoke outside. However, some of the hostesses can be surly. But I know for a fact none of these individuals were in the house before. Unless this is some sort of Parasite situation. Are we doing Parasite now, Brian? There are more proactive ways to address society’s many tragic disparities. We’ve talked about this.

When we first moved in, my clothing did not smell of sizzling USDA-Choice beef. My boss at work never took me aside for a “confidential conversation” about my “strongly scented shrimp and noodle shampoo.” That is a recent issue. It was a weird conversation, Brian. Also, he would like a reservation on Saturday. For ten people. At 8:00 p.m. It’s his birthday, Brian!

Did corporate even sign off on this? What would the late Hiroaki Aoki — founder of Benihana and father of megastar DJ Steve Aoki — say if he knew this was happening? I’ll tell you who DOES know, Brian: the neighbors. If they weren’t getting happy hour pricing on top of an already reasonably priced and tantalizing menu, I’m pretty sure we’d have some legal problems here. I’m not even sure where to find an attorney who specializes in defending secret residential eatery franchisees, no matter how successful the restaurant concept is. That’s not the kind of law I studied at Tufts, Brian. I don’t think this comes up a lot.

Here’s the thing: I don’t actually care about any of that stuff. I’m not upset about the perpetually stinky house, or the rowdy customers, or the occasional visits from the fire department. I just don’t like the gaslighting, Brian. No, I don’t mean the industrial stoves; I mean the lies.

That’s what hurts. And I don’t know how our relationship can recover.

But an onion volcano is a good start.





Laura K. Duncan is a writer who lives in Las Vegas. You can find her in The American Bystander, Slackjaw, Points In Case, McSweeney’s and, in one particularly embarrassing incident, her parents’ laundry chute.

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Cartoonz
Chris Gural




















Chris Gural is a cartoonist from New York whose work has been featured in The American Bystander, Airmail, Weekly Humorist, Alta Journal, Two Fifty One, and elsewhere.

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Joseph and Mary Ask Jesus
to Come Home for Hanukkah
Michael Pershan


S
weet Baby Jesus,

Your father and I are trying to plan Hanukkah. Think you’ll be able to join us in Nazareth for the last night? You also have a birthday coming up.

Love,

Mommy <3



Hey,

Write your mother back when you have a chance. She has been trying to reach you. Hope to see you over Hanukkah.

Dad



Sweet Baby Jesus,

I was cleaning out the manger. Do you still like myrrh? Was thinking it could be a nice birthday gift. Or for Hanukkah, if you can find a minute to write back.

Mommy <3



Sweet Baby Jesus,

Are you OK? What’s wrong?

Love,

Mommy <3



Sweet Baby Jesus,

Our neighbor Shulamith says her son lives in Jerusalem and sees you all the time at the Temple. It gives me such nachas to hear that you’re still going to Temple.

Shulamith’s daughter seems very nice and is dying to meet you. Maybe first night Hanukkah? Or second?

Love,

Mommy <3



Hey,

I’m forwarding this on to you. It’s a sermon in defense of the Pharisees. He raises some interesting points. Maybe discuss it on Hanukkah?

Dad



Sweet Baby Jesus,

I’ll assume you aren’t coming for Hanukkah. Maybe we can come to Jerusalem for your birthday. Don’t worry about us. Seriously, we’re fine. We just love seeing you. It’s no problem at all. Don’t forget to light candles.

We love you,

Mommy <3



Hey,

Your mother’s incredibly upset. Write her back as soon as possible.

Dad



Sweet Baby Jesus,

Upset? You think I’m upset?

Your father and I completely understand that we need to share you with your many disciples. Of course. I mean, after all, you’re God’s son. We’re just your parents.

We want what’s best for you. If that means you can’t come home for Hanukkah, of course we are disappointed in you. But we understand.

Have a terrific holiday. Make yourself some wine and share it with that nice boy Judas.

Mommy <3



Sweet Baby Jesus,

A parable for you. A woman has a child. The child grows up and moves away to the big city. Then the child bumps into some lepers, all a sudden he doesn’t come home for Hanukkah anymore.

So, what does the woman do?

She sits and takes it. Because some of us have to suffer. Some give up their lives willingly for the sake of others. Your children forsake you, but what can you do about it? Nothing, that’s what.

You’d better come for your birthday.

Love,

Mommy <3



Hey buddy,

Glad to hear that your schedule cleared up. Your mother and I are looking forward to
lighting candles with you.

By the way — what are your plans for Passover?

Dad





Michael Pershan is a math teacher and writer who lives with his loud family in NYC. His writing has been in Tablet Magazine, Points in Case, Slackjaw, and The American Bystander.

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If This Is Jesus’s Wine,
I Think I’d Prefer Water

K.A. Polzin



First off, I have nothing against Jesus. He seems like a nice guy, and my friend Bob the Leper says great things about him, so I won’t knock him. He just doesn’t know shit about wine. That Galilean vino is real swill. Made from the cheapest grapes this side of Mount Tabor. Why Jesus would turn water into that slop is beyond me. It just about ruined our wedding.


It’s weird because Jesus drinks a fair amount of wine, so you’d think he’d know his stuff. Just the other day, he had a big supper with all his apostles and he served a velvety Judean merlot. Bartholomew called it “memorable.” But get this: it turns out it was a Passover gift. One of the apostles trying to get on top of the situation. Because apparently every time Jesus provides the wine, it’s shit.


And word has gotten around. There was a wedding just last week where they had those same three-firkin waterpots, and Jesus was searching everywhere for them, hoping to perform his usual “miracle,” but the bridesmaids had hidden them among the stalks of flax. They knew the kind of dreck Jesus would maketh.

Even more weird: Jesus is from Nazareth, where there’s, like, three of the best wine shops in the region, including Zebedee’s, voted Best Wine Merchant (North). It’s literally a block from his mom’s house. So he’s had ample opportunity to develop his palate. I think he just prefers that cheap stuff from Trader Jozabad’s.


It’s a mystery because, according to those five thousand people, his bread is heavenly: great aroma, golden brown crust – almost baguette-like. Those folks were hungry and would even have eaten Wonder Bread, but Jesus came through with some uber-local artisanal loaves to feed the multitude. So we know his taste buds work.


Look, I’m not anti-miracle – I acknowledge Jesus’s impact in the sightless community – but the Lord gave us “wine that maketh glad the heart of man,” not wine that forceth us to leave our own wedding reception to secretly spit it into the bulrushes.


We need a plan going forward. Somebody needs to have words with Jesus. Maybe Sapphira the wedding planner? She’s good with prophets. Because I will not drink another glass of substandard wine due to Jesus. I don’t care how many unclean spirits he’s cast out.


The chief priests are talking about hauling Jesus in for blasphemy – anything to get him off the streets before the next wedding season. Or maybe just a night or two in jail, to send him a message, get him to lay off the beverage-based miracles, focus more on mains. Or on his work with the blind and lame, the lepers – win-win stuff.


Sounds drastic? Then you’ve never tasted his wine.





K. A. Polzin is not the K. A. Polzin who co-authored “Numerical Investigation of Near-Field Plasma Flows in Magnetic Nozzles” (2009). This K. A. Polzin, however, has appeared in McSweeney’s Internet Tendency, The American Bystander, Weekly Humorist, and Funny Times. Polzin’s short stories have appeared in Subtropics, Fractured Lit, and X-R-A-Y (among others). Instagram: @k.a.polzin

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Robert Criss

Rube Goldberg Suicide Machine   ©Robert Criss

 

You Want Me To Talk?
What’s Next, I Gotta Sing And Dance?



You want me to “talk?” What’s next, I have to sing and dance? Choreograph an original musical number based on the events of my life up to this point? And then what? Novelize? Monetize? Record a best-selling audio book, foreword by Peter Bogdanovich? Adapt it for the silver screen and audition for the role of myself? Practice being myself in the mirror so I can really nail it? Is that what you want? Huh?

 

You want me to secure funding for a spin-off television series based on fan favorite side characters whose backstories weren’t explored in the original? Win awards for each increasingly more annoying version of the same story? Melt the Emmy, Grammy, Oscar, and Tony down into a big metal hunk? Display it in a gallery as an artistic statement against the idea of awards? Win more awards? Right now? For your entertainment? You would like that, huh? I bet you’d like that.

 

You want me to “shut up?” What’s next, I gotta take a vow of silence? Communicate only with hand gestures and hastily-made drawings? Is that it? Become a mime? Do mime stuff? Wear mime clothes? Eat mime food? Hang out with other mimes? At your behest? Yes?

 

Move to France or Canada? Live as a mime lives? Age as a mime ages? Die as a mime dies? Without a word? Not a peep? I bet you’d enjoy that fantastic silence but let me ask you this: hath not a mime farts? Hath not a mime sneezes? If you stab a mime, do we not scream? And if you quietly cross a mime, do we not seek LOUD revenge? You don’t know, do you? You don’t even know.


You want me to “solve for x in the equation 18/3–7+2*5=x?” What’s next, I gotta divide 18 by three? What’s after that, I gotta multiply two and five? What’s after that, I gotta add six to negative seven? What’s last, I gotta add negative one and 10? Is that your idea of a solution? Nine? What was even the point of that? Hello??

 

You want me to calculate ambiguous math problems without explanation? Just free labor? Or was the solution itself a calculation of my wage? Do I get nine? Why not just round up to 10? I feel I’m worth closer to 10 than nine, wouldn’t you say? On second thought, could I take another pass at that math problem? Great, just want to make sure I did it right, you know? Let’s take a look… what on earth?! This time I got 50–wouldn’t you know it? I guess that means I receive 50, right? It’s a good thing I checked, I almost shorted myself 41, can you imagine? I can’t.

 

You want me to “get lost?” What’s next, I gotta wander out into wilderness untouched by man? Touch it? Let it touch me? Touch myself? That’s it, isn’t it? And when an emergency rescue team drags me back to civilization, what then? Try again? Wear a blindfold? Take the blindfold off so I can drive out to the middle of nowhere at dusk? Put the blindfold back on? Take the blindfold off again because it’s dark anyways? Put the blindfold back on because it’s dark anyways? Touch myself again? Because who said so? You?

 

Let me get this straight, you want me to… wait, what do you want me to do? You want me to get something specific, right? What were we just talking about? Gosh, I’m just so lost right now which happens to be exactly what you wanted, isn’t it?! Aha! You thought you could get in my head, didn’t you? But I caught you, didn’t I? ANSWER ME! TALK, GODDAMMIT! I WANT YOU TO TALK!





Robert Criss has but one dream. And that dream is saving the family farm from them slick city bankers. He breakdances without the piece of cardboard on the ground to raise money & he’s got 8 bloody adidas tracksuits to prove it. You can find his work right above this biography or below depending on where this biography is placed on the page in relation to the work.

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I’m The Guy Who Has to Read
All Your Comedy Articles

Jeff Kulik

 

I didn’t believe the ad when I first read it in the back of the Penny Saver. It seemed too good to be true. Get paid to sit and read comedy articles all day? Come on! What’s the catch?

Mr. Krumholz seemed nice enough at first, but still, I was skeptical. Sit in a room and click on comedy articles for eight hours a day, five days a week, he said. Easy money. When I asked him why, he told me not to worry about it. I shrugged and asked where to sign.

The first day, they took me to a windowless room in the basement of a warehouse and sat me down at a card table on which they’d arranged a laptop, a glass of ice water, and one of those toy drinking birds. They gave me a list of websites to look at and told me everything else was being blocked. “Don’t even think about reading the news or checking the weather!” Mr. Krumholz said, noticeably stricter than when we’d first met. I let out a sigh and got to work.

This isn’t so bad, I thought. Some of the articles were actually pretty funny. Ted Cruz’s Five Favorite Bands that Hate Him Even Though He Likes Their Music had its moments. Same for I Accidentally Shared My Netflix Password on Tinder, and Things Elon Musk Might Be Doing Today If He Hadn’t Sold PayPal. It began to drag a little as I read through I Am Your Cat and I Watched You in the Shower This Morning, and Three Different Hairs I Found in My Soup At Lunch, but all in all, it wasn’t a bad gig.

By the end of the week, I was a little worn out from all the reading and gentle chuckling. When I went into Mr. Krumholz’s office to pick up my check, I had to get an answer about what this was all about. After some back and forth, he finally said, “Views, my dear boy, views. How do you think these comedy sites stay in business? Do you think people actually read these things?” What an old fool, I thought, laughing all the way to the bank with my fresh, hot check.

By the end of the next week, I was getting more and more discouraged. Your Toilet Seat Has a Few Words for You, and A Brief Message from Mitch McConnell’s Chiropodist just weren’t hitting with me. Marvel Movies That Would Be Greatly Improved if Yahoo Serious Starred in Them, and Mike “The Situation” Sorrentino’s Ten Best Odors, however, definitely pushed me over the edge. I marched into the old man’s office, but before I could open my mouth, he asked, “Finally had enough, eh son?”

I nodded yes. The comedy articles had beat me. He got up, put his arm around me, and led me out into the hall. We passed room after room of poor unfortunate souls clicking on comedy article after comedy article. I couldn’t do it anymore. The old man knew. We finally got to the last door. “I’ve got something far better planned for you,” he said, throwing the door open and pushing me into a room full of people toiling away under bright desk lamps. 

“What is this?” I asked, dumbfounded.

“Your future, my boy! What we’ve been grooming you for!” the old man said. “Writing online comedy articles.”

One of the writers turned around to face me and eerily intoned, “One of us!” just as the old man closed the door behind me and left me to my fate.





Jeff Kulik is a lifelong Chicagoan who has been published in The American Bystander, Arcturus, Defenestration, Adelaide, Stand, Literally Stories, Wry Times, and Public Organization Review. He also regularly contributes to the humor site MuddyUm.

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Arun Durvasula is a cartoonist in LA. His cartoons have been published in The American Bystander, The Weekly Humorist, Two Fifty One, and The Phi Delta Kappan.

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Introducing the Inventive, Offbeat,

Dark, Perverse Humor of Robert Criss

 

 

Rube Goldberg Suicide Machine  ©Robert Criss

 

 

I met Robert Criss, at the MET, like a little biatch heh heh heh ho ho ho heh heh heh yah yah yah I met Robert Criss, at the MET, like a little biatch heh heh heh ho ho ho heh heh heh yah yah yah I met Robert Criss, at the MET, like a little biatch heh heh heh ho ho ho heh heh heh yah yah yah I met Robert Criss, at the MET, like a little biatch heh heh heh ho ho ho heh heh heh yah yah yah…

A fitting introduction for Robert’s style of humor.

 

Segueing into seriousness, Robert Criss is a young-ish humor writer currently living in Atlanta. I first came across his writing randomly during my own early foray into publishing short humor.

 

I believe the first piece was “Signs That the Person You’re Talking to Might Be from New York.” A relatively conventional conceit (for Robert), tho delivered in a fractionally more unusual, literary style than most such pieces, employing, however instinctively, modernist methods of repetition, anaphora, and symbolic agglomeration, as well as deep and twisty irony, elevating it above the common fare. Plus, my having lived in NYC / Brooklyn for some 8 years, it was pretty on point! Rendering it all the funnier.

Later I came across a few of his more typically offbeat, dark, perverse or boundary-pushing pieces, was further impressed, and felt inspired to do a deeper dive… Messaged to offer my compliments, and we struck up a sporadic correspondence. 

 

Over the past decade to half-decade–due to the consumerist mercenary algorithm-based New Media / Social Media ‘attention economy,’ shortened attention spans, cultural degradation, high printing costs, and other factors–viable humor writing venues keep closing. The coterie of ‘top’ ones increasingly run topical-ish, formulaic, cookie-cutter humor, of ever shorter and shorter length.


Robert’s writing, emerging during this period, is at once informed by this landscape of the fungible and single-premised, but has also managed to subvert it and turn it on its head towards original ends. A marker of vision or creativity transcending the time-and-place.

 

Robert’s humor tends to be on a higher level conceptually than much of the stuff appearing now. It tends to employ irony, sarcasm, and other subtle comedic devices more deftly, meta-reflexively. Tends to be darker, more offbeat, slapstick, irreverent, black, bawdy, and risk-taking–hearkening back to freer and amply funnier times and styles, when comedians weren’t afraid to push boundaries of decency and propriety, but clearly also contemporary. Conspicuous silence in Comments Sections probably means he’s bravely (and foolhardily) pushing the edge… and silently succeeding! Some contemporary parallels might be Tim Robinson, Nathan Fielder, or John Wilson. (Or John Waters!) 

 

One curious thing about Robert’s writing is that it typically (though not always) lacks most punctuation, save periods, sparse commas, and occasionally has almost none at all. One wonders to what extent this is intentional, what a product of growing up as a ‘Gen Z’ or late ‘Millennial’ in a period when social media, texts, messaging apps, and other cursory forms of communication, stripped of punctuation and emoji-laden, skyrocketed. At any rate, so far he’s made the style work for him and exploited it. 

It’s also conversational and colloquial. And often reads like a sketch or play fragment that might work even better performed aloud. At turns stylistically it can come off, if such a thing were possible, as a sort of Cormac McCarthy or Gertrude Stein humor parallel.

As Robert has been prolific in the past three or four years, it’s difficult to select representative and choice pieces from the hundred some he’s published. (And, of course, I haven’t had the chance to read more than a fraction.) Thus, I asked him about his personal favorites, and am including two, which I agree are among his best, as well as a short I like. Also, early examples of his ‘Optical Disillusions’ (explained below). And a few crudely drawn cartoons I especially like. (Like many humor writers, he’s also prone to occasionally combining illustration or cartooning.) I’ll take a great idea coupled with illustrative crudeness over commonality and slickness any day; indeed, in some cases visual awkwardness even enhances. Where are the wonderful crudely drawn cartoons of yesteryear? A short list of pieces for Further Reading appears at the bottom, including the New York piece, and some of his more unorthodox and risqué offerings. 

Robert may not be a ‘master’ of the written humor form just yet–are there any contemporary masters?? can there be when publications won’t publish a humor piece longer than 800 words now?!–but (not to jinx anything) he seems to be on his way.

Currently, a complete book of his Optical Disillusions is forthcoming from Weekly Humorist Press. As I understand, over the past year he’s been watching a ton of avant-garde and classic cinema, reading a lot of theater and classic literature, and refining his use of punctuation and grammar a bit. More recently, he’s taken a hiatus from short humor writing to study theater more and try to write a play. Who knows, maybe we have a neo Harold Pinter or August Strindberg (or, you know, Robert Criss) in the making.

Looking forward to the efflorescence of whatever he comes to concoct. (If it be the Spirit’s will.)

 

–Ed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sir, I Am Not Pleasuring Myself to the Pin-up Girls

Painted on the Side of the Warplanes, Sir

 

 

LIEUTENANT: WHAT ARE YOU DOING OUT HERE ON THE AIRFIELD AT THIS TIME OF NIGHT, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, I WAS ON PATROL DUTY AND STOPPED MOMENTARILY TO ADMIRE THE WARPLANES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: WHY ARE YOU ADMIRING THE WARPLANES FROM THE SIDE WHERE THEY PAINTED THE PIN-UP GIRLS, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, I BELIEVE THIS SIDE ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER PARTS OF THE WARPLANE ARE WORTHY OF EQUAL ADMIRATION WHEN THEY WORK TOGETHER TO CREATE THE MIRACLE OF FLIGHT, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: DON’T YOU KNOW THE ENGINE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THE AIRCRAFT, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, THE ENGINE IS VERY IMPORTANT BUT WHAT IS AN ENGINE WITHOUT WINGS AND WHAT ARE WINGS WITHOUT A FUSELAGE LIKE THE ONE I’VE STOPPED HERE TO RUN MY FINGERS ACROSS, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: THAT SOUNDS LIKE PERFECTLY COMMONPLACE BEHAVIOR TO ME, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: YOU JUST ANSWER ME ONE QUESTION, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: WHY DO YOU HAVE YOUR PANTS DOWN TO YOUR ANKLES, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, I FELT A BEE CRAWLING UP MY LEG AND REMOVED MY PANTS ALLOWING IT TO ESCAPE BEFORE IT COULD STING ME, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: ARE YOU TELLING ME YOU’RE AFRAID OF A BEE STING, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, IT WASN’T SO MUCH THAT I WAS AFRAID OF IT STINGING ME, I WAS TRYING TO AVOID THE STINGING BECAUSE IT WOULD CLAIM THE LIFE OF THE BEE AND I AM A LOVER OF ALL INSECTS PLANTS AND ANIMALS, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: IN THAT CASE, I UNDERSTAND YOUR DESIRE TO PROTECT THIS PLANET, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: AND CONTINUE AT ALL COSTS TO NURTURE THE PLANT AND ANIMAL LIFE AROUND YOU FOR EARTH IS OUR ONLY HOME AND MOTHER NATURE ITS GREATEST GIFT, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, I WILL, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: BUT BEFORE YOU DO THAT, EXPLAIN TO ME WHY I RECEIVED REPORTS OF LOUD MOANING COMING FROM THIS AREA, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, I GOT CARRIED AWAY BY THE P-51 MUSTANG’S ROLLS ROYCE PACKARD BUILT V-1650-7 MERLIN 12-CYLINDER ENGINE WITH ITS 1490 HORSEPOWER, A MAXIMUM SPEED OF 500 MILES PER HOUR, AND SIX .50 CALIBER MACHINE GUNS—TWO WITH 270 ROUNDS PER GUN, FOUR WITH 400 ROUNDS PER GUN—ALONG WITH ITS 37-FOOT WINGSPAN, 13-FOOT HEIGHT, AND 32-FOOT LENGTH THAT MAKE UP 12,300 POUNDS OF PURE AMERICAN MUSCLE, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: WELL THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY WITHIN THE CONFINES OF SOCIALLY ACCEPTED ACTIVITY, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: AND I’D LIKE TO COMMEND YOU FOR YOUR METICULOUS RESEARCH AND DEEP APPRECIATION OF THE AIRCRAFT, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, THANK YOU, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: AND I’LL LET YOU CONTINUE YOUR PATROL IF YOU TELL ME WHY YOU ARE HOLDING THAT BOTTLE OF LOTION AND TOWEL, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, I WAS USING THIS TOWEL TO WIPE OFF THE FINGERPRINTS I’D MADE ON THE AIRCRAFT THAT MIGHT LEAVE UNFLATTERING SMUDGES VISIBLE IN DIRECT SUNLIGHT DURING MORNING INSPECTION TOMORROW, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: AND THE LOTION, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, THE LOTION IS HERE TO RESTORE MY FINGER OIL AFTER MUCH OF IT IS TRANSFERRED ONTO THE MACHINERY IN THE ACT OF CARESSING THE AIRPLANES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: PRIVATE, YOU’RE TELLING ME WHILE YOU WERE ADMIRING OUR ARSENAL YOU BROUGHT ALONG A TOWEL TO PRESERVE THE AESTHETIC INTEGRITY OF THE PLANE AND A LOTION BOTTLE TO MAINTAIN A BALANCED AMOUNT OF OIL ON YOUR FINGER AND WHILE MOANING LOUDLY FROM THE PURE ECSTASY THIS ACTIVITY GAVE YOU, YOU NOTICED A BEE CRAWLING IN YOUR PANTS SO YOU REMOVED THEM AND THIS ALL OCCURRED SPECIFICALLY IN THE AREA CONTAINING THE ONLY AROUSING DEPICTIONS OF FEMALE SPECIMENS ON THIS ENTIRE AIR-BASE FULL OF MEN AND ONLY MEN, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: ARE YOU LYING TO ME, PRIVATE?

PRIVATE: SIR, NO, SIR.

LIEUTENANT: WELL THEN, PRIVATE, TO REWARD YOU FOR YOUR UNFLINCHING HONESTY AND OUTSTANDING ATTENTION TO DETAIL, I NEED YOU TO DROP YOUR PANTS AND USE THAT LOTION TO PLEASURE YOURSELF TO THE PIN-UP GIRL ON THE SIDE OF THIS PLANE FROM NOW UNTIL ZERO FOUR HUNDRED HOURS SO LONG AS YOU CLEAN UP AFTERWARD WITH THAT TOWEL AND KEEP YOUR MOANING TO A MINIMUM, PRIVATE.

PRIVATE: SIR, ARE YOU SURE, SIR?

LIEUTENANT: THAT’S AN ORDER, PRIVATE!

PRIVATE: SIR, YES, SIR.

 

 



 

 

 

The Doctor Says I Need More Cheese In My Diet

And That You Can Take It Up With Him If You Disagree

Or Think I’m Lying Because I’m Not

 

 

Welp, I just had my annual checkup at the doctors and it went well. Yep, tests came back good. Tested high on the high ones, low on the low ones you know. Doctor did recommend I add more cheese to my diet though.

 

Yeah, he said more cheese because he knows that I like cheese and he said it’s okay to have cheese for every meal. He says the way I feel while eating cheese is good for me because I’m happier. He knows how important cheese is to me and stands by the benefits of cheese consumption.

 

You think I’m lying? Well, he actually thought you might say that and he told me to tell you that you can take it up with him if that’s the case. He doesn’t like when people don’t trust his prognoses. Takes that kind’ve thing really seriously. So you can take that up with him.

 

Anyways he also said I should cut out all the exercise I’ve been doing as well. Said I’d be better off eating chicken wings every night from my favorite wing spot. I asked him what flavor and he said what’s your favorite flavor and I said buffalo and he said buffalo it is. I was as shocked as you are but you know he has a degree.

 

The man studied for 8 years. What am I going to do? Not listen to him? Out of the question. I mean I could get a second opinion. He said it’s not necessary though. So technically that’s a second opinion right there. Just from the same guy who I trust completely.

 

He told me if I started competing in eating competitions on the weekends that would also be really cool. I asked if it had any health benefits like the no exercise, cheese, and chicken wings diet and he shook his head. He said, “I just think it would be really cool if you did. You might even get on my wall of fame, who knows.” It’s this bulletin board near the reception desk where only pictures of his favorite patients are featured for all to see. I’ll admit, I want my picture on there badly.

 

Here, this is his home phone number that you can call to verify. Don’t call now he’s still at the office but go ahead and leave a message if you’re so sure he’s wrong. He invites criticism. But he’s a busy man. Might take a few days to get back to you is all I’m saying.

 

Like I said, the tests came back good as far as I know. I mean at least he said they did he didn’t go into specifics. Kind’ve brushed over them. His main goal was teaching me how to swallow the most ice cream while under a time constraint without getting a brain freeze. The trick is to keep a warm rag underneath your hat.

 

Trust me I know how it sounds. When I told him I wasn’t so sure about his methods he told me to strip down to my underwear. He then proceeded to feel around in my underwear and said, “Yup, they’re still there. Just checking.” Then he parted his coat to show off his souvenir t-shirt underneath he earned from eating six pounds of ice cream in under three hours. You can’t make this stuff up!

 

Ask yourself, what would I gain from lying? I’d be able to eat all the foods that I want at any time? That doesn’t sound fun to me at all. From what I’ve heard previous to my appointment, that’s putting my life at risk.. But, hey, someone’s gotta do it.

 

Though I had to ask him about my heart health. Coronary artery disease runs in my family. It killed my father. That’s when he got very serious. He told me the best thing a man my age can do for his heart is extreme sports. He said stuff like paragliding and whitewater rafting is going to keep me alive longer. He said testing the heart and putting the most strain on it as humanly possible will no doubt make it stronger over time.

 

I didn’t understand that part. How was I going to be fit enough for extreme sports by not exercising and eating only my favorite foods?

 

He explained that the heart is a muscle like a bicep or deltoid and the only way those get stronger is if you tear up the old muscle tissue by lifting weights and eating protein to create new muscle. So I can neglect the other muscles in my body as long as I treat my heart the way a latissimus dorsi is treated by twelve sets on a cable machine. By putting myself in heart attack scenarios, my heart is given the greatest workout of all.

 

I said, “Really?” And he said, “Yeah something like that.”

 

I tried stumping him by asking if the “apple a day keeps the doctor away” thing was true. Surprisingly, he said it works but most people get it wrong by eating gala or fuji apples. Surprisingly, he said people should be eating caramel apples every day, dentists are making people “soft,” and that basically everything I thought I knew about nutrition was not only wrong but also cringeworthy. In fact, every time I said the words nutrition or health he would visibly shudder and put a finger to his lips.

 

“The only ‘meal prepping’ you should be doing,” he said, “is with pancakes.”

 

So, yes, that’s why I brought home a week’s worth of wings, fondue, and ice cream. Doctor’s orders.

 

 

 

 

 

Intrusive Thoughts During An Award Ceremony  ©Robert Criss

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Results of the survey I conducted

asking people if they like my new hat

 

Mother: Do I like your new hat? I LOVE your new hat. You’ve really bounced back from the incident with the paper shredder and your genitals.

Father: Pal, I think you look just wonderful in your new hat. I’m really proud of you and the way you’ve composed yourself in the wake of the paper shredder thing.

My friend, Tom: I like your hat so much I’m actually a little jealous I didn’t find it first. And I heard about the accident at your workplace. That’s terrible. My family is praying for you.

My co-worker, Lisa: Your new hat is killer! Also, the custodian said your office is clean enough to return to work now.

Custodian: After many days of scrubbing and powerwashing, we were able to clean up the walls, floor, desk, and ceiling. The rugs did not make it. I haven’t seen your new hat.

My doctor: Your new hat looks great, I could never pull it off. It is super cool. Just don’t go too crazy while you’re wearing it. You’ll rip your stitches.

Insurance adjuster who called me: Your coworker told us that you went to sit on the paper shredder but your pants ripped exposing your genitals right before you sat down. We’re following up with you to determine if that story is accurate. I’d love to talk about your new hat, as I’m sure it’s nice, but it’ll have to wait.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Optical Disillusions

 

 

Several years ago Robert began experimenting with the idea of ‘Optical Disillusions’: optical illusions with a twist, which humorously and sarcastically disillusion the viewer. Eventually he created a full-length book, accepted by Weekly Humorist Press and forthcoming.

At this point it seems there are few novel humor concepts left ‘untapped,’ and Robert instinctively honed in on one. Optical illusions + black humor = Disillusion. An original sphere that hasn’t been comically explored much.

Below are some of the earlier Disillusions (not appearing in the book) he’s at liberty to share. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Further Reading

 

 

Signs That the Person You’re Talking to Might Be from New York

 

Alvin And The Chipmunks’ Christmas Song The Year After Alvin Died

 

Farm to Table. Table to Fork. Fork to Mouth. Food to Throat. Air to Throat. Hands to Chest. Hands to Chest. Hands to Chest.

 

Oh No, I Just Realized I’ll Never Be Able To See The Elephant’s Foot At Chernobyl!

 

I Was Really Moved By Your Beautiful Trombone Solo Until You Pressed A Button And Made The Instrument Ejaculate A Liter Of Spit

 

I Think The Red Line Crossing Out The Swastika On Your Shirt Could Be A Tad Thicker

 

I Hope I Didn’t Embarrass You By Shitting My Pants While We Sat Courtside At The Laker Game

 

The Lost Final Chapter of Helen Keller’s Biography

 

What’s the Best Part About Your Entire Family Dying From COVID?

 

Why Do I Even Bother? It’s All Been Said Before In My Novel Series Detective Kojak Pikachu-Holmes And The Ambiguous Origin of Chinese Checkers That’s Been Overlooked For Far Too Long

 

Full List of Humor Writings & Visuals on His Website

 

 

 

 

 


 

—About the author, Robert Criss

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 





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An excerpt from Fugitive Dreams, a literary supernatural thriller in progress by Matthew Murphy

 

 

 

 

 

When his eyes opened he found himself curled into a crescent against the corrugated metal of the culvert, wedged into the exact position he was in when he fell asleep. It was still dark, the wee hours of the night when desires ran loose and dreams filled the world with their allusive illusions, their mirage worlds built of hopes and fears and insecurities, their shifting vistas ever-changing, the space behind them infinite.

 

For a moment all was still and quiet save for a puff of breeze exhaling through the pipe that lifted a strand of his hair and tickled his scalp, sending a not unpleasant shiver down his back. He took stock of himself and his surroundings—he was Tommy Roenick, it came to mind, and he was a fugitive from a federal penitentiary, had been so for over a day now as a matter of fact, and he was now cowering in a wet culvert under a country road somewhere up in the northern reaches of the province. His father he had never met, his mother and brother were dead, and he was all alone in the world, more so now than ever. And he hadn’t eaten in a day and a half.

 

He looked drowsily to his left, at the open mouth of the culvert, at the small creek of runoff rivulets now silver in the moonlight, and thought of how pretty it looked in the hint of light that sifted spectral from the sky. As he did so, hoping to once again close his eyes and catch another hour or two of sleep, he felt on his other side a sudden feeling of arctic coldness, encroaching and drawing what warmth there was away from him. He turned, and when he saw what was there he froze with fear.

 

He was not alone.

 

A couple metres away hunched a shadowy presence, as if coalesced out of the very darkness, drawing shade as well as heat. He was unable to even gasp, the sound locked in his throat. He felt paralyzed, much like he did back in his solitary cell when a shadowy presence hung over him and held him frozen as he lay in his bed. Perhaps this same presence that was crouching in wait in these close confines with him, a blackness, a coldness, an insidious absence.

 

A high-pitched, whimpery sigh escaped his mouth as though he were deflating, and the sound jarred him out of his frozen trance. He shimmied backward toward the mouth of the culvert, only to see the shadow elongate itself toward him, its spindly arms reaching and stretching, elastic, approaching, encroaching like a darker shade of night unlit by any moon. Again, he backed up a foot toward the mouth of the tunnel and then stopped, realizing that this person, this spirit, this entity, this whatever it was, could reach for him anyway even if he tried to bolt. He looked into the dark blankness of the face cut from the cloth of midnight, tried to see into the blackness for any sign of features, and saw only an indistinct wavering born from the strain of his squinting.

 

“Who are you?” barked Tommy in a ragged, frightened voice, much like he did in his solitary cell when he felt the presence stalking behind him. “What are you? What do you want from me?”

 

He heard a low, basso-profundo moaning, a bestial growl coming through the ether like a faraway radio transmission. From here, from there, from everywhere. Or from some other plane entirely.

 

He gasped, frozen to the spot with fear.

 

Once again he felt icy fingers seize his heart. He felt cold and fragile in the clutch of this being; he felt invaded and infiltrated and unable to do anything but sit rigid in fear while an invisible force held his heart like a ripe tomato and threatened to squeeze it till it burst inside his chest and his life dissolved into the blackness of the night.

 

He felt the vise upon his heart tighten, and spots formed in front of his eyes. He gasped in pain and then backed out of the culvert, falling into the muddy puddles of standing runoff below. As he picked himself up off the ground he felt the pressure round his heart slacken, the invisible fingers like cold metal cuffs around his heart unclasping. With the sudden infusion of air into his lungs, he inhaled in relief and took off through a break between the trees, running through the bushes as fast as he could, the twigs snapping against his face, his lungs tugging for air. He tripped over a root and fell headlong onto the rocky path, scraping his hands in the dirt as he put them out ahead of himself to break his fall. No time to lick his wounds. He got back up on strained and rubbery legs and continued running.

 

Behind, he could hear footfalls on the trail, the rustled parting of foliage, the snap of twigs underfoot. Adrenaline propelled him forward, and he responded to this chemical call with great clarity, legs pumping, feet deftly avoiding the catch of roots, the gnashing stub of rocks. A fork in the trail: which way? Each option trailed off into a night-black hole in the hairy brush. He opted for left and kept running, running and sweating. How long could he keep this up? His legs burned with every stride, the furious pumping of his thighs reaching the limits of muscular exertion.

 

He stopped a moment to catch his breath and rest his legs. Enfolded in the gnarled, bristling trunks and arms of the forest, and in the cloak of night, he felt as though trapped in a childhood nightmare. He wondered a moment, am I really being chased? Now that he had stopped a moment, the cuts in his back and hand began stinging, singing with pain. He needed a doctor and he knew it. He looked down at his hand, cut badly on the prison sewer-grate, at the dried blood that soaked into the dressing, the blood tracing the jagged fissure of bad luck running through his palm.

 

A crunch, a crash, the forest transmuting the sound of footfalls to the sound of its own rustled foliage, its own disturbed stones and roots and fallen twigs. An icy presence looming behind him.

 

A cold breath on his neck.

 

He continued running. He wished, oh he wished he knew where he was going. He had started out north when riding in the truck. At least he thought so. Now where? What would he run into? And what would happen if he stopped?

 

The sound of running water, a burbling stream in the bristling nightwood blackness. A few steps ahead through a tangle of twigs and leaves and he could see the flashing water of the stream carrying a quicksilver skim of moonlight on its downward course. He bent down and cupped his hands and slurped several deep handfuls of the cold water, his cut hand stinging, and looked behind him to see if there was some other way he could go to avoid getting drenched.

 

He saw a slight opening in the tangled weaving of the foliage, and as he parted the branches to further explore he felt invisible talons slice down his left forearm. He gasped in pain and looked down at a row of four deep furrows scratched into his skin, his blood blooming black in the night. He looked all about him, straining his eyes in the darkness, but could see no one or nothing.

 

Frightened, he jumped into the running water, slipping and sliding among the boulders and tumble of mossy logs and branches. The cold seized his breath. He gained a footing by holding onto the branch of a fallen tree, it reaching up as though for help in its dying fall. He helped himself along, using his grip for leverage, and then slipped down into deeper water, up to his waist, sliding amongst the slimy boulders and sunken branches. His groin froze; his penis protested and withdrew from the temperature, and the flow of water was nearly overwhelming. He feared he was going to be carried away downstream to God knows what fate. He struggled to regain his footing, and paddled himself with struggling, wheeling arms against the current, and he lunged forward and managed to grab a fistful of twigs and leaves dangling from a bent-backed birch leaning over the river from the other side as though to lend a hand. He pulled himself up, straining, with the handful of birch foliage, and he managed his way across, and he disappeared through an opening in the tangled bush and was again enfolded in the spiny embrace of the forest.

 

* * *

 

Overhead, the flapping of a crow in the gnarled woven canopy. He was cold, shivering at the base of a cedar, obscured in the foliage. His pants were soaked, and the temperature was dropping, autumn in the air and cooling it fast these darkest hours of the early morning. No sign of his mysterious pursuer anymore, no telltale crunch and rustle through the underbrush, no ominous vibrations of impending approach. It smelled of woodchip earthen dampness, of bitter bark and rotting leaves. The pain in his hand and arm and back had numbed awhile from his dash through the stream, but his nerves were now awakening, and an itchy throbbing now defined the edges of the deep lacerations he had incurred. For all he knew he could now get tetanus, lockjaw, whatever the hell they called it. Where the hell am I, he wondered, and where the hell do I go next?

 

There was no room for carelessness. The story had surely broken by now. The sky would be abuzz with helicopters in the morning, and the police would be scouring the countryside from high above with binoculars, all the way down through the snouts of sniffing dogs. They had probably been doing so already, were perhaps already near. Every main road was probably blocked at some point; police from every force would be mobilized; even military reservists could be in on the search. Most breakouts did not end well.

 

He shivered and he shook and he ran his fingers through his hair, and he squatted, too tense to actually sit, too primed to relax. God, how he craved a cigarette now, something to calm the nerves. He felt frightened in the forest, directionless. He looked about and all he could see traced in the blackness was the tangle of the thick impenetrable bush, the bristling forest that grew seemingly from the stones themselves through a thin medium of acidic soil ground under the press of glaciers long retreated to their alpine and arctic redoubts.

 

He looked about in the oppressive darkness and guessed it was about three o’clock in the morning. It was late whatever the exact time, and he was adrenalized and starving. He felt as though he could not carry on much longer without some sort of a meal and some rest. But the pressure was on to keep moving. Oh Christ, hope I can find some shelter and some food, he thought, I gotta move, I gotta move, and it’s getting cold and I can’t sleep in the open in the bush with the cold and the animals and all the heat that’s surely coming my way. And whatever it is that’s on my tail.

 

He stood up, embowered in the thick brush about him, and continued his way through the forest, on a winding root and boulder strewn path, feeling his stumbly, uncertain way in the dark, pushing twigs out of the way, brushing against leaves. He heard only his own footsteps, his own heartbeat, the rustle of the foliage and the crunch of stones he stepped upon, with nary a thought as his mind had contracted like his stomach from hunger and nerves and fatigue.

 

At last, the woods gave out into a stony field, and he walked out watched only by the ancient eyes of stars staring out from the prehistoric past, some long since burned out, their spectres glowing faintly in the night.  A cool breeze brushed through the long grasses of the field and through his hair, and it ruffled his sodden clothes. He shivered and kept on his way. An owl hooted. He stood to take stock of where he was, what he should do.

 

“Okay,” he said aloud, squatting in the field over a pitted table stone in which were embedded the fossilized denizens of an ageless sea, a Braille record of earthen memory, trilobites and shellfish and nameless ancient plants turned to stone in the gorgon stare of half a billion years. His breath smoked in the darkness. “Okay, I think I’ve lost it. I’m fuckin’ crazy. That thing—that thing—fuckin’ chased me all this way.”

 

He ran his hands through his hair on the sides of his head over and over again for sake of nerves, and continued speaking in the solitude of night. “Then it scratches me. I don’t fuckin’ get it, what’s goin’ on, I don’t understand a goddamn thing. And I’m all—I’m all cut up and bleeding everywhere and I need a fuckin’ doctor.” He stood up and kicked at the earth in impotent rage, dislodging a stone from the grass and the shallow soil.

 

“And I, I gotta be, I gotta be all over the news by now.” He paced back and forth, a few steps this way, a few steps that, his hands on the side of his face. “I need a fucking smoke, I’d kill for a smoke right now, I’d absolutely kill for a cigarette right now.”

 

A glance up at the stars in their midnight millions fixed in their burning points into the depthless cold of eternal night, fixed and impassive on his plight. What you need, he thought, weaving his self questioning back under the surface, back into thought, “Is to get your hands on a car,” his thoughts threading out through speech once again. And get your hands on a gun and hit a bank or a store—there’s no way around it—and take the cash. And get to a safe house of some kind so you can make further plans to disappear. Only then can you breathe easy. Only then.

 

“But now,” he continued aloud, choosing his words with care as he tried to still the mounting and inarticulate panic within him. “Rest. Get some sleep. You have no idea where you’re going or what is even happening right now.”

 

To this end he walked to the edge of the clearing and sat at the base of a tall cedar. He huddled himself against the cold and he shivered, and he lay his head against the rough bark of the tree, and he clutched the throbbing furrows of his arm with this hand, and he sat, teeth chattering in the coolness of the night, and awaited the arrival of sleep. He dissolved into drowsiness, eyes looking absently out at the darker shades of the trees against the lighter darkness of the night, and as he looked out he saw something in the corner of his gaze.

 

A pair of yellow eyes were fixed on him in the distance, shining faintly though staring with cold intent. Small pinpricks, hard to make out, but very much there, their indistinct pupils trained on him. A shiver of fear prickled through him.

 

“Go away,” he mumbled hoarsely, meeting the gaze of the eyes upon him in the night. “Fuck off! Leave me alone, whoever you are!”

 

But the eyes just stared at him as he muttered another curse and slowly closed his eyes and clutched the furrows in his arm now scabbing over. His own consciousness scabbed over for a while to undo the damage of the last couple days and make him forget the growing, gnawing hunger in his contracting, boiling gut. From time to time he emerged from his shallow, uncomfortable sleep and looked out and saw, or thought he saw, those beady yellow eyes still trained upon him in the blurry darkness.

 

And when he closed his eyes again he would plunge into staticky electric dreams of shapes and shadows and the breath of his uncle stinking of booze as he wound up to whip him with his belt and the drawn mask of his mother’s face in the prison visiting room and her croaking voice, “Sleep tight in here, Tommy, don’t let the bed bugs bite.” And the whirling sirens of the police upon him escape after escape and… and the twisted, broken shape of Lynne Hurst lying on the pavement as he looked down in horror at what he had done. She suddenly pulled herself up onto her elbows, her movements jerky, unnatural, animated as though her body were a puppet poorly worn by another spirit. Her head turned toward him, the eyes white, a grimace on her dead white face as she looked at him, into him, through him—

 

And still those eyes when he opened his, burning fires of midnight light, beacons to Bedlam’s shore, he drifting ever closer.

 

“Sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite,” that haggish croak as his mother hovered over him, her bony fingers clamped upon his throat. She flashed decaying, sharpened teeth as she grimaced, her hands upon his neck squeezing, squeezing, pools of black tar bleeding into his vision, signifying his own extinction—

 

“Jesus Christ,” he murmured, opening his eyes again, a light breeze blowing through his hair, the eyes upon him still, “I just want to sleep without any goddamn dreams, please God just let me sleep just let me sleep—”

 

This cycle carried on through the eternity of the wee hours until at last the sky lightened, and the dreams went the way of the darkness.

 

 

 

—About the author, Matthew Murphy 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 





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New poems by the renowned Beat / post-Beat poet on the state of affairs & the state of the heart in the later years



 

 

 

Is It True

 

Is it true a huge swath of India will be

too hot to inhabit? where hundreds

of millions now live?

Will the land cook?

Where will this massive swelter move to?

A huge cauldron of people cultured to live

their unique manner & outlook

Where will they go?

 

Is it true Greenland is sweating out millions

of tons of itself into the Rising

of the Great Thaw?

Is it true Venice might be submerged

New Orleans too?

Will many islands disappear?

How about Manhatta?

 

As fit water is rarefied and the profit motive

derives policy & law & commands

enforcement

So the Big Boy wealth will have just cause

for war as their traditional solution to scarcity

& over population & climate change

 

Mutated seeds have replaced the Buffalo

The Pacific Ocean is radioactive

Baby Godzillas everywhere

Cameras inside cameras

Every busy corner televised

Yes or No decisions faster than sound

won’t let you escape

Calculates your every future move

 

Wishing is a curse

Wishing that I could make life

easier for you

An adequate provider instead of a geezer

whose accumulated wealth is in

battered notebooks & a 20 year old

iMac

Who’d be pushing mushrooms

if not for you

 

I haven’t a foot for games of fun

as in fun & games

At the parties dancing is another country

another era

I’m not getting old I am old

 

Wisdom is more than caution isn’t it?

Even children of rocky soil

Scions of bedrock smile at

Turn eyes to……flowers

both feral & cultivated

 

Yesterday’s rebels & revolutionaries

are afraid of change

Now old & compromised

They have their small slice of pie

Yet the Garch have made it mandatory

Change and not just talk of It

or that slice will amount to zilch

 

 

 

They Have An Artist Graveyard In Woodstock

 

The masses have been molded indoctrinated into

thinking meanness is cool

That we must cold look out for number one

to as always survive

Major Mass Media

Main Stream Media

Violence sells, intrigues

Maybe I’m wrong, that we know

Too much is the problem, maybe

We do better as cattle prodded this way

& that, huddled together

in our own excrement

Waiting for the train to the slaughterhouse?

 

Artists die here

They even have a special cemetery for artists

It costa money—so does the regular graveyard

Get rid of my carcass cheap as you can

I think burning it will be, if I can’t be dumped

in the Atlantic, my preference

left out for carrion eaters from the sky

But my ashes can go anywhere East Oakland 101st

Ave would be cool so would the Meuse back

in the old country and the Ganges!

Rather one reads my books than a stone marker

 

 

 

A Way Out

 

The situation we find ourselves in

is driving me to nostalgia for the bottle

I haven’t been drunk in at least 8 years

(Yes what you thought was intoxication

was just my bad personality)

I can’t believe the “Love” Generation is going

to the grave with a whimper

Didn’t you experience the marvelous possible

unseen, seen when our eyes went

supernatural inside dancing molecules

buzzing from body to body?

 

We hear the mountains speak

They have heard much

They can correct us

The ocean can discipline us

The sky can make life unbearable

or healthy beautiful

The constituents have been hoodwinked

into voting against their interests

Not realizing they/we are examples

of why universal suffrage

can be viewed by some as a failure

 

We failed to win the war on drugs

(I admit I wanted drugs to win)

We failed in the war on poverty

No one in my recent ancestry was a scholar

Neither my mom nor dad finished hi school

My son Cassidy is a scholar

Are there rooms where the oligarch’s secret ministers

are picking out the assassin & victim?

Perhaps the method will let the well-paid controllers

of data let all falsity slip by on the party line

as facts are rendered meaningless

 

It drives me crazy when I know good learned people     

who think our next political move should be  

a compromise an attempt to replicate the recent       

past and rely on good old free enterprise system  

to suppress the violent revolutions of the

impoverished and busy away from peaceful

petitions of working class they, our version

of free enterprise, will limit the power

of the Garch

The minds behind that direction have no duty to the

future or past (the present defined)

The minds propelling policy—employ hate as the

great equalizer

 

They want violence

They think their money will protect them

from the massacres and keep their rule extant

Get rid of troublemakers

I’ve been over it myriads of time and I still don’t

know how money does it

Poison darts? maybe not but even depleted uranium

guns need money

The soldiers & officers in harm’s way

with huge harm in their retinue & regime

available but not without money & food

That I don’t have a remedy for the problems

humans face

The words that could solve this inextricable

suicidal dilemma are not forthcoming—

I don’t see someway out of here

no I don’t

I think for now victory for the Garch

is near inevitable

How long before the fellaheen rise again?

As sad and horrible life can be I desire

it goes on as the song stated

“for the good times”

 

 

 

We Will Live To Dance Again

 

O you were special flaunting that bare shoulder

with spinning moves in the drum circle

on the country tavern hardwood

in the meadow of magic round the fire

High stepping the electric hoe-down & the slow

danced intricate hands elegantly mudra quality       

motions of cleansing & cherishing

That Blakean smile of smiles welcoming eyes

emanating desire is tonic is health

When I first felt the back of your thighs and your   

glutes somehow and why I knew and stated

wow you have the good stuff

My friend warned me you were demure

No! You wanted it as much as I!

And your face resembling so Bernini’s St. Theresa

Espousing & exposing what the ideals of the day   

made into spiritual orgasm into strong queens

and sought after princesses, Mary

Wollstonecraft & her daughter Mary Shelley

and you loved and produced exceptional

language and rocking and rolling blues

that birthed jazz & symphony

Know I am blest we two deplore the Establishment

four kids and big breasts & a face I’ve always

adored since puberty

The Gates of Eden protrude and beckon

I would learn the heavy heat deep in the

Ambrosial bath of my main tool exhibiting a mind

of its own and your gypsy skirt dervish

 

Men & women are enthralled in homage

to the traditions you evoke

The Future radiates your cheeks

I watch you change apparel; your skin orchestrates

my fingers

I put my eyeballs into your nipples

It feels Good!

 

Covid-19 just isn’t going away is it?

Must it invade every ode every lyric?

Going to the happy side of the bed

Your entire body transforms into Clit & G spot

all of it makes you glad

And that is my desire & goal

There’s no ambiguity in our desire our lusts

The back of your ears your naked neck

excite my face and the noises

Breathings whistling outbursts of animal pleasure

I admire your hips a classic woman

Our bodies assemble to resemble the movements

of the divinities of the Pantheons

There is a god for every blade of grass

and a divine iota of sound for every

burbling pebble of water

Whether it is my mind or yours

The years the creases of time the tree rings

of the brow vanished

I could see sharp as daybreak the girl

in your face

 

Meanwhile the Fall of America

We like the lovers of Pompeii frozen in lava

embracing

Our history all we knew and abided by crumbles

into industrial back black bleak burning water

What was the reason to believe? & love is from

another fairy-tale era

In a motel room

In a pup tent

In the guest room

In the car in the other worldly Grand Tetons

Jackrabbits & tumbleweeds

going ape shit

O delicious skin O fragrant nape

Waves of genital heat sound like the inauguration

of this Universe

A sucking reverb and the Big Bang

is only my voice

There is no number symbol icon or word

come close to accuracy or description

We can’t rally we are inside wary of touching

the outside

The spoken air is a danger, singing

in the church choir could be a ticket

to the after life

This life on earth is a riddle only solved

by Death & what kind of answer is that?

Yet for a moment all the gloom evaporates

when you let your jeans fall to your ankles

When you put yr Mammalia on my buzzard

bait face and you soft touch my testicles

We’ve had choices

We’ve had opportunities of heroism

The directions of nations & empires

could have gone an unorthodox path

to Nirvana

But money pleasure self aggrandizement

got in the way

Because of you I’m still here

saying the great escape is still alive

I think humanity will find a way from this

sickening place it created It may take

millennia and IT may end any day

because of the damage to the air fire earth water

Yet humanity could & may survive to a harmonious     

collective will yet free minded destiny

and you know why?

Me & You, You & Me, that is why in the drum circle

on the country tavern hardwood floor

in the meadow of magic

It is the lovers who deserve life

and we will dance again

 

 

 

Let His Male Progeny Be Busboys

 

Let Barbie daughter work a 50 hour week at   

McDonalds & deal with male co-worker

predators in the crowded work space

like the other girls & women

Let the Kentucky prune be an orderly

at an old folk’s home

bed & pan division

Let the little Batista

unload the vegetable crates

out the semi onto the forklift

Let him eat out of a vending machine forever

or a Dempsey Dumpster

Let the Cuban-Canadian-Texan politician transform

into Whipping Boy

Let the Cockwomble like Stalin insult and belittle

one’s wife or lover as a loyalty test

Let the dark Adamms family wannabe do its turn

in the swank dungeon with grinning sadists    

being creative dining on bat meat

Let Lady Macbeth the fork tongued gangster

spend her days as an ordinary working class

Saudi Arabian woman

Let the Minnesota Soccer Mom Prosecutor

wait for Beaver to come Home  

Let her spend a few months in a cell

or quad next to the innocents

she prosecuted and convicted

Let the talented dark government groomed

and tested Howdy Doody   

be entertainment at the billionaires’

masked costume ball   

Let him Sing & Dance with Death

Let the Grand Bribers beg on the sidewalks

       & let their progeny be bus boys

 

 

 

 

 


 

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A thoughtful, informed reflection by inveterate world traveler and intentional community proponent Martin Dixon-Tyrer on what the pandemic has momentarily revealed to our blinded perceptions, unearthed both of the noble and base, and may bode for the future.

 

 

“A frozen moment when everyone sees what’s on the end of every fork” 
William Burroughs

 

 

California, 1999. I’m in bed, 23 floors up in a generic business hotel, trying to get ahead of the jet lag I know is coming, having stepped off a plane from Europe just a few hours earlier. Drifting in and out of sleep I feel the floor rumble as a large truck goes by. The rumble continues, and in the fog of jet lag I suddenly realise I’m nowhere near a major road nor am I on the ground floor. Earthquake! I bolt out of bed, the floor moving, rumbling, swaying for another 20 or 30 seconds. I hear a woman screaming somewhere, loud enough to make it through the sonic insulation of this airport hotel. Then it is over. I dress and go to the lobby, joining every other guest in the hotel, all of us safe and unharmed but shaken, definitely shaken.

 

For days afterwards what I’m walking on doesn’t feel so solid and certain anymore. It feels contingent, it could move at any moment. With time this feeling passes. (Everything passes with time, except those things that don’t).

 

Since then I’ve lived in Lima, a place where earthquakes happen with startling regularity. I’m no longer affected emotionally… they are just a fact of life. Living in an apartment building designed to withstand earthquakes helps, but then any building that stays standing in Lima for a few years is by definition safe in most earthquakes. Still, I never forget that the ground can move.

 

The coronavirus pandemic feels similar. The realisation, as with a first earthquake, that this doesn’t fit within the parameters of anyone’s everyday life. There’s a strange feeling that things will never be quite the same again, an awareness that the world can go into suspended animation and you’ll be sheltering-in-place wherever you happened to be when the music stopped.

 

The lovely nomadic life I’ve lived for the last few decades is not coming back in anything like its previous form. That old certainty that a first world passport means you can leave from wherever on a whim and go somewhere else is over. A distant blue horizon viewed from the deck of a sailboat midway across an ocean isn’t so inspirational if you’re worrying about whether you’ll be turned away when you arrive. I feel sad about that—it was a beautiful privilege. I also recognize that what I’m describing doesn’t come close to the genuine terror of a refugee’s experience, and that most of the world’s population never had the luxury of visa-free travel and an easy welcome anyway.

 

Things that seemed so solid for many, things like jobs, retirement plans, the economy, have in a matter of weeks turned out to not be so. For others less fortunate their anxiety about economic insecurity has proven correct. The froth on the economy in the west has been blown away with a single gust from a virus. It feels like that ‘frozen moment when everyone sees what is on the end of every fork’, as WiIliam Burroughs said of Naked Lunch.

 

“All that is solid melts into air, all that is holy is profaned, and man is at last compelled to face with sober senses his real conditions of life, and his relations with his kind.”

–Karl Marx

 

Half a century before Burroughs’ masterpiece something else was stirring. In a radical cabaret improbably located in Zurich the Dada movement began. It was a reaction to the insanity of the First World War—a war that was the consequence of industrialization, imperialism, nationalism, and the absurd posturing of men with big egos in charge of powerful states. (So nothing like today then…) Dada’s aim, in the words of Hans Arp, was to create “an elemental art to cure people from the madness of the age”. While it’s true that his ambition was not fully realised, one might reasonably say that much of the evolution of 20th century critical thinking flows from the seeds that Dada planted. For the 21st century we too need our version of Dada with the ambition to cure people from the madness of this age.

 

Some of that madness, partially obscured from view by money and social normativity, has been starkly revealed during this pandemic. Let’s start with the cacophony around coronavirus. In case you missed it, Bill Gates has a plan for world domination, to be achieved by injecting microchips into our bloodstreams through mandatory vaccinations. The World Health Organization is encouraging governments to break into people’s homes and abduct children. The virus is a hoax, and the symptoms are the effect of electromagnetic radiation from 5G phone masts, which can be cured with turmeric tea or frog venom or injecting bleach. The virus was fabricated in a lab in Canada, released in China in a controlled way (they already have a secret vaccine, don’t you know) then sprung onto an unsuspecting wider world allowing the Chinese to take over western companies at bargain basement prices.

 

It would be easy to see boundless idiocy as the order of the day, and sometimes the internet feels like a postmodern Tower of Babel—people bellowing at each other in incoherent languages, devoid of logic and credibility. But really it’s just noise, the Gilbert and Sullivan of discourse reborn as the thrash metal of the alt right and the clanging bells of new age woo woo. There is plenty of good analysis out there, serious and thoughtful, but you’re unlikely to come across it if ‘doing your own research’ means watching YouTube videos.

 

Of more tangible concern than the carnival of confusion is a dumbed down libertarianism, a vapid individualism, that asks only “what is best for me”, or in the more magnanimous version, “me and my nuclear family”. That virus has been infecting us for more than 40 years, Margaret Thatcher’s words still hanging in the air like droplets from a malignant cough: “There’s no such thing as society. There are individual men and women and there are families.” Sadly, for some, the pandemic confirms and reinforces the premise, a vicious cycle of unenlightened self interest.

 

It’s notable that gun sales spiked upwards as the pandemic became real for Americans. This cult of individualism and the nuclear family is most advanced there, and the self fulfilling prophecy that others will act aggressively in their own interest naturally leads to a need to defend one’s own individual turf (well, one’s stockpile of toilet paper and pasta anyway). Social trust dissolves further as the castle walls around the nuclear family are built ever higher. It’s hard to avoid seeing the consequences of this ‘what’s best for me’ behaviour—even the absurdity of hoarding toilet paper can easily be turned into a lesson of ‘do whatever is necessary to ensure comfort for yourself / your nuclear family first’. Because, without toilet paper, western civilisation collapses…

 

Then there’s the personal version of the philosophy of Disaster Capitalism (brilliantly exposed by Naomi Klein), where a crisis is seen as an opportunity to exploit and profit, garnering benefits for a few at the expense of many. Governmental actions to mitigate the impact of the pandemic could be seen as an example of care for all, but often they are received without a sense of communal obligation. It’s just a win for the individual, rather like Ayn Rand gleefully grabbing state healthcare in her later years having railed against it for most of her life.

 

While we’re on the subject of boundless idiocy and selfishness, reality has demonstrated conclusively that Rand’s Atlas Shrugged was, as many of us suspected, a badly written dystopian fantasy rather than a coherent philosophy (if you haven’t read it, don’t bother—it’s a dreadful novel). The strike by the ‘productive leaders’ bringing the economy to a standstill looks laughable now. Does anyone doubt that the economy craters when ordinary people, despised by Rand as ‘looters’, stop working? Would the reality of everyday life really be worse if most investment bankers and hedge fund managers, tax accountants and management consultants, marketing executives and stock analysts, and so on, went on strike? (Having done a couple of those jobs I can say with confidence: no, it would not be).

 

And yet…

 

In neoliberal-infected Britain over 750,000 people have volunteered to help during the pandemic. I watched this happen from news reports, open mouthed with disbelief, grateful for this beautiful demonstration that, notwithstanding decades of neoliberal indoctrination, not all hope is lost. People on the island, at least a good number of them, are not quite as utterly self absorbed as the sum of their other actions suggests. The seeds of mutual assistance lay there dormant, just waiting for the right moment to bloom.

 

Is this a green shoot of community breaking through the toxic sludge? Perhaps people will start looking to each other for help, and perhaps they will continue after the virus passes… repairing something for a neighbour, helping in the garden and sharing produce, shopping and cooking for each other, looking after the kids and the elderly. Exactly the kind of mutual aid that Kropotkin documented as an antidote to the cruelty of social Darwinism, that ‘war of all against all’ imagined by Hobbes.

 

Rebecca Solnit, chronicler extraordinaire of communities that arise after disasters, would not be surprised. She documents dozens of examples of communities that sprang up after disasters like Hurricane Katrina, the 1985 Mexico City earthquake, and the World Trade Centre attack in 2001. More recently, self-organised communities appeared in Greece during the Eurogroup’s brutal fiscal waterboarding of the country. It seems that, the concerted efforts of market fundamentalism and neoliberalism to change this notwithstanding, we are indeed cooperative and altruistic in our core.

 

Emissions are down, oil consumption is massively down, the skies and rivers are clearer, more birdsong can be heard. Probably, the rate at which we’re making other creatures extinct is lower. People seem to want to walk in parks and in nature more. City centres are being partially pedestrianised. Gratuitous air travel has more or less stopped. People are cooking more at home, noticing ingredients and thinking about what they are eating, adding more love into food. At a macro level people are working much less… and to some extent state distribution of money is enabling life to continue. The idea that we cannot change the economy substantially, that the only way the world can possibly work is through unfettered capitalism, that ‘There Is No Alternative’, has been shattered like an egg… and the pieces will never fit back together again. (It’s also worth noting for future reference that it didn’t take much to shatter that egg.)

 

So, while the path leading here is not one to be celebrated, certainly not one that we would have chosen, we are where we are. We have space to reflect, and consider whether we wish to return unchanged to the state of affairs that existed a few months ago. Just like after an earthquake there’s a desire for this to end, for it to be nothing more than a bad dream, to go back to what was, to replicate the prior status quo, maybe tinkering around at the margins a little. But there is also a possibility to go deeper, to evaluate our lives, to ponder on individual and collective values, to be radical in the sense of the original Latin, radix, root. And that feels inspiring.

 

I certainly don’t have a crystal ball to see the future, and I don’t think anyone does at the moment. However, some threads are becoming clearer. It seems unlikely that travel will return to previous levels for business as virtual conferencing, now trialled extensively through necessity, is so much more efficient. Tourism is going to take a long time to recover to previous levels, if it ever does. More services are going to be provided virtually, for example a consultation with a doctor utilising some basic medical technology at home or at a local centre. This will thankfully increase access to medical services for poorer populations. Online shopping will increasingly replace retail shopping, reducing the number of people required to work in dull jobs just to survive. All of that feels good. On the other hand, what happens to economic inequality? And to human social interaction? In a year will we still be a bit wary of each other, hesitant to get too close to others in public spaces, rarely hugging or touching? How will dating work? Will we become even colder and more isolated, those who can retreating into the nuclear family? That doesn’t feel so good.

 

“Don’t speak too soon, for the wheel’s still in spin… the order is rapidly fading”

–Bob Dylan, 1963

 

I feel that the pieces have not yet fallen to the ground, and that there won’t be a single all-encompassing model coming out of this time. Milton Friedman, dark prince of neoliberalism, once said “Only a crisis—actual or perceived—produces real change. When that crisis occurs, the actions that are taken depend on the ideas that are lying around. That, I believe, is our basic function: to develop alternatives to existing policies, to keep them alive and available until the politically impossible becomes the politically inevitable.” On that, at least, he was right.

 

One pole that some could move towards is community, love, mutual aid… simplifying our lives and helping each other to live well. Another pole is building a bigger wall, excluding others, looking after ourselves, whether that be at a country level, a family level, or an individual level. There’s also a question of whether we restart the insane focus on economic growth and consequent environmental degradation, or live in much greater harmony with the planet and with each other. Whether we try to recreate last year’s norm of extractive casino-capitalism fuelled by empty consumerism and unrelenting competition, or whether we try living cooperatively, testing out Universal Basic Income, sustainable agriculture, and degrowth. The ideas are out there—documented, thought through, explored.

 

“People make their own histories, but not in circumstances of their own choosing”

–Karl Marx

 

Individually we are all historical actors, relevant and valid, our every action inescapably contributing to the reality we live within. Collectively, too, we are historical actors, stronger than the sum of individuals. This can be our moment, a point of inflection, a fulcrum for change.

 

Like the Carnation Revolution of 1974 in Portugal, and the fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989, change can happen peacefully, and acting out a more beautiful world brings that world into being. Tangibly, practically, if we act with each other as we desire the world to be we are literally making it the way the world is. And if we keep doing it that’s the way the world stays.

 

Writing this at my friend Naomi’s beautiful farmhouse in Portugal I can’t help but ponder on the Carnation Revolution and the sense of possibility and hope that it turned into reality. Sophia de Mello Breyner Andresen, a Portuguese poet, captured it so well:

 

This is the dawn I waited for
The new day clean and whole
When we emerge from night and silence
To freely inhabit the substance of time.

 

It’s up to us, each of us individually, each of us collectively. The choice is in our hands.

 

 

 

 

 

— About the essayist, Martin Dixon-Tyrer



 

 

 





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Made off-the-cuff in the midst of Covid lockdown by naturally humorous actor Chris O’Bray, the apathy, clunkiness, and deadpan delivery, coupled with enervation both from months of lockdown and the undiminished zeitgeist of late Capitalism, lends this half-intentionally comic video review of Jolly Rancher cereal a metaphoric resonance that transcends its 80s connotations. It seems to eloquently capture what Thoreau called “the quiet desperation” of the modern individual in the age of materialism. Should it be in an art museum? A museum of historic preservation?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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